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So, I can proudly say that I survived my first year of college! I remember a year ago, feeling so excited, scared, and anxious... wondering what college was like, if I would have friends, if the classes were as intense as people had told me. When I finally moved into the dorms it was surreal and I thought that I was going to be just fine without seeing my family everyday, but I was wrong. For the first couple weeks of college I was miserable. I couldn't focus. I think I cried a couple of times before I went to sleep. I put a lot of pressure on myself to get those A's. I really thought that college wouldn't be too different from high school...now when I look back, that transition was rough...

After seeing my grades from Fall & Winter quarter, I was devastated. Sure, I was technically passing but that wasn't good enough for me. So for a couple weeks I stopped going to club events. I stopped going to Liwanag and Kababayan so that I could read more, study more...but that made me realize that I needed those clubs. Those people, my friends, were my backbone. They helped me to get through each week. I finally started to get the hang of things and after that, college became so much fun for me. Amidst all the stress, I love college for the social aspect and now that I'm back home for the summer I have to admit that I miss it.

However, I really am happy to be back home. I'm just trying to make sure that I make the most out of my next year. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't get too involved in only one organization and that I would broaden my horizons. I don't want one club to define who I am. I want to have the freedom to explore, try new things. Of course I want to stick with Liwanag and Kababayan because those are my two families away from home. But I want to do some volunteer work too, maybe some kind of high school outreach, I just want to HELP. All this time I've been scared of trying new things, but I am going to make sure that my second year of college will be different. I'm ready to make a change...to BE the change. It's going to be LEGENDARY!! 

P.S. I'm currently addicted to How I Met Your Mother...haha...great show! :D